HOMILY VIII
The words of the Prophet which, by the Lord's generosity, are to be spoken today to your charity require reading more than exposition. For those things are repeated in the three inner gates which have already been said a second or third time concerning the outer gates. But a few things are changed in their description. Hence it is necessary for us to run through by reading those things which have already been said, so that we may more freely explain those things which have not yet been said. And so now it is said: "And the gate of the inner court toward the South way, and he measured from gate to gate in the South way, one hundred cubits. And he brought me into the inner court by the South gate, and he measured the gate according to the former measures, its chamber, and its front, and its vestibule with the same measures, and its windows, and its vestibule round about, fifty cubits in length, and twenty-five cubits in width, and the vestibule all around." You remember that all these things were said and explained above (especially in the previous homily). But what is added concerning the same vestibule has not yet been said: "Twenty-five cubits in length, and five cubits in width, and its vestibule toward the outer court." And again what had already been said above is repeated, when it says: "And its palm trees on the front." And immediately what had not yet been said is added: "And there were eight steps by which one ascended to it." This also which is written concerning the South gate is narrated in the same order concerning the East gate as well. For it is immediately added: "And he brought me into the inner court by the East gate, and he measured the gate according to the former measures, its chamber, and its front, and its vestibule as above, and its windows, and its vestibules round about, fifty cubits in length, and twenty-five cubits in width. And its vestibule, that is, of the inner court, and palm trees carved on its front on this side and on that, and its ascent was by eight steps." Those things also which were said concerning the South gate and the East gate are repeated in the same words also concerning the gate which looks toward the North. For it is added: "And he brought me to the gate which looked toward the North, and he measured according to the former measures, its chamber, and its front, and its vestibule, and its windows round about, fifty cubits in length, and twenty-five cubits in width. And its vestibule looked toward the outer court, and carved palm trees on its front on this side and on that, and its ascent was by eight steps."
What, therefore, is signified by the inner court, by the chamber, by the fronts, by the vestibule, by the windows, by the length and width, by the carving of palms, we have already spoken of extensively above, and it is not fitting that we should occupy ourselves again with the same things, but only with those which have not yet been said. Now, therefore, we must inquire what these three inner gates are, or what it means that the vestibules of these same gates are measured at twenty-five cubits in length and five cubits in width; or why one ascends to them not by seven steps, as was said of the outer gates, but by eight. For the gate of the inner court which was mentioned above is not among these three inner gates, because that one is said to face toward the gate of the East and North, whereas these are recorded as being positioned individually within toward the South or East and North. Hence through that one the inner entrance is rightly designated, because, as was already said in the preceding discussion, it lies open either to Jews and Gentiles, or to those beginning and those persevering in good, or to those falling from good but rising after their faults through repentance. But now, after individual gates have been described in the East and North and South, why are individual gates of the inner court again described in the South and East and North? With the Lord breathing inspiration, great effort is needed to search out the depth of so great a mystery. For if by the name of gates we understand the holy preachers, we should know that the Church is one in the preachers of the Old and New Testament. The gates have seven or eight steps because they harmoniously preach the sevenfold grace of the Holy Spirit, and by the eighth step they announce the reward of eternal retribution. Whence it is written: "Give a portion to seven, and also to eight." What, therefore, can we say the outer gates were, except the ancient fathers, who through the precepts of the law knew how to guard the works of the people rather than their hearts? So that we ought to understand the inner gates as the preachers of holy Church, who by spiritual counsels guard the hearts of their disciples, lest they take delight even in thoughts in the evil things they do not do. For through those gates one is said to ascend by seven steps, but the ascent of these is declared to be of eight steps, because both in the veneration of the law the seventh day was kept, and in the New Testament the eighth day is held in sacrament, namely that which is called the Lord's Day, which is the third from the Passion but the eighth from creation, because it also follows the seventh.
But if by the name of gates we understand only the holy apostles to be designated, who are indeed the first preachers of holy Church to us, and who taught us to hold most firmly to faith, hope, and charity, they therefore are gates for us in these virtues, who lead us through the same virtues to the interior understanding of eternal wisdom. But if they are the outer gates, whom do we accept as the inner ones? And if they are the inner ones, whom do we understand as the outer ones? In this matter it can be usefully understood that they are simultaneously both outer and inner gates for us. For when they preach to those who are still beginners not lofty and mystical things, but certain things that can be grasped, they are outer gates; but when they speak profound and mystical things to the perfect, they are inner gates. Let us see how the outer gate opens: "I could not speak to you as to spiritual persons, but as to carnal ones, as to little ones in Christ I gave you milk to drink, not solid food." Let us see how the inner gate opens: "We speak wisdom among the perfect." Let us see whether the same gate is both inner and outer: "I am a debtor to the wise and to the unwise." He who again says: "Whether we are beside ourselves, it is for God; whether we are sober, it is for you." For in this, that by contemplating and speaking to the wise he is beside himself, he is an inner gate; but in this, that he tempers himself soberly in preaching to little ones, and does not show how much intoxication of the Spirit is poured into his mind when he preaches, he manifests himself to be an outer gate. Therefore they are both outer and inner gates for us, who both establish us in the first entrance of faith, hope, and charity, and when they preach the mysteries of the heavenly kingdom to those already progressing, they lead us to interior things through a more subtle sense.
Hence their ascent is first described through seven steps, and afterward through eight. For by the eighth step are signified the mysteries of that life which the perfect understand in their secret places, who have already learned to transcend all temporal things in mind, who fully despise the present life which unfolds in the course of seven days, who are nourished by intimate contemplation. Therefore the gates of the spiritual building have seven steps, because they preach to their hearers the fear of the Lord, piety and knowledge, fortitude and counsel, understanding and wisdom. But when they now command all things to be relinquished, when they admonish that nothing in this world be loved, nothing be held by affection, when they urge that one attend to the contemplation of the heavenly fatherland and delight in its mysteries, they add a step and bring them across to interior things. This step, as Truth teaches, was shown to a certain man, who when the precepts of the law were spoken to him, responded: All these things have I kept from my youth. For he was standing as it were already on seven steps, when he said he had kept all things from his youth. But immediately it is said to him: Yet one thing is lacking to you: If you wish to be perfect, go, sell all that you have, and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven, and come follow me. In these words he indeed saw the eighth step, but he refused to ascend, because he went away sad. Therefore whoever, having despised temporal things, is nourished by the contemplation of eternity, searches out the joys of the heavenly kingdom, after the seven steps which he held by fearing and working and growing in the understanding of wisdom, has entered by the eighth step the entrance of the interior gate.
Through the number eight both the day of eternal judgment and the resurrection of the flesh are signified. Hence also the Psalm which is written "for the eighth" begins with fear of judgment, when it says: "Lord, rebuke me not in your anger, nor chasten me in your fury." For now is the time of mercy, but in that judgment is the day of wrath. On which day, indeed, all this time which revolves through seven days comes to an end. Because it follows after seven days, it is rightly called the eighth. On which day our flesh also will rise from the dust, so that it may receive from the Truth whether good or evil it has done. Hence also by the law circumcision is commanded to be performed on the eighth day. For through the member that is circumcised mortal propagation is generated, and the number of those dying and succeeding is increased. But because in the resurrection of the dead neither is propagation of the flesh any longer performed, and there will be no passing away and succession, because as it is written: "They will neither marry nor be given in marriage, but will be like angels in heaven," on the eighth day the foreskin is commanded to be cut off. For there the propagation of the flesh no longer has a place, where the rising flesh has the permanence of eternity. Through this member descended the virgin mother, who conceived God in her womb without union with a man, who first showed us the glory of the eternal homeland in his resurrection. Who rising from the dead, dies no more, and death will no longer have dominion over him. And he gave us an example, so that we may believe those things will happen on the last day concerning our flesh which we have recognized happened concerning his flesh on the day of resurrection.
But because our discourse has led us to the resurrection of the flesh, it is exceedingly sad and greatly lamentable that we know some stand in the Church and yet doubt the resurrection of the flesh. The ancient fathers most certainly believed this would come, even when they held no example yet of that same resurrection. With what condemnation, therefore, are those worthy who have already received the example of the Lord's resurrection, and yet still distrust their own resurrection? They hold the pledge, and have not faith. They fill the Church, but because they doubt their own resurrection, they stand with empty minds. Concerning this resurrection it is said through blessed Job: "I know that my Redeemer lives, and on the last day I shall rise from the earth, and again I shall be clothed with my skin, and in my flesh I shall see God; whom I myself shall see, and my eyes shall behold, and not another." Hence also through the Psalmist it is said: "In his sight all who descend into the earth fall prostrate." For the dead descend into the earth not in spirit, but in body. Therefore those who descend into the earth fall prostrate in the sight of the Lord, because those who now rot in dust come to judgment by rising again. Hence again he says: "My soul has thirsted for you, how greatly also my flesh." The soul thirsts to see God; for what does the flesh thirst, except to rise again? Hence again he says: "Take away their spirit, and they shall fail, and shall return to their dust." And immediately concerning the resurrection of the flesh he adds: "Send forth your spirit, and they shall be created, and you shall renew the face of the earth." Hence again he says: "Arise, O Lord, into your rest, you and the ark of your sanctification." For the Lord arose into his rest when he raised his flesh from the tomb. After him also the ark arises, because the Church rises again. Hence through the same prophet of whom we speak it is written: "Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord. Thus says the Lord God to these bones: Behold, I will send spirit into you, and you shall live. And I will put sinews upon you, and will cause flesh to grow upon you, and will stretch skin over you, and I will give you spirit, and you shall live." Hence it is that another prophet through the Lord's resurrection saw the human race raised up at the end, and said: "He will revive us after two days, on the third day he will raise us up, and we shall live in his sight." Hence it is that when the Lord spoke of himself, he added: "Do not marvel at this, because the hour comes in which all who are in the tombs shall hear the voice of the Son of God. And those who have done good shall come forth to the resurrection of life; but those who have done evil, to the resurrection of judgment." Hence Paul says: "From where also we await the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform the body of our lowliness, configured to the body of his glory." Hence again he says: "For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, so also God will bring with him those who have fallen asleep through Jesus." Who again says: "Christ the firstfruits of those who sleep." For if we do not rise from the sleep of death, how do we have the Lord's resurrection as firstfruits?
Behold, the ancient and new Fathers agree with one another in one spirit concerning the resurrection of the flesh. Behold, Truth itself first taught by word what it afterward demonstrated by deed concerning the resurrection of the flesh, and yet still the weakness of some does not have faith while standing in the house of faith. But they are accustomed to wonder how flesh can come back to life from dust. Let them wonder, therefore, at the height of heaven, the mass of the earth, the depths of the waters, all things that are in the world, and the angels themselves created from nothing. It is far less to make something from something than to have made all things from nothing. The elements themselves, the very forms of things, proclaim to us an image of the resurrection. For the sun dies daily to our eyes, and daily rises again. The stars set for us in the morning hours, and rise again in the evening. We see trees full of leaves, flowers, and fruits in summer times, which in winter time remain bare of leaves, flowers, and fruits, and as if dried up, but when the spring sun returns, when moisture has risen from the root, they are clothed again in their beauty. Why then is there distrust concerning human beings, when what is seen to happen in trees is observed? But often they look upon the dust of rotting flesh and say: Whence will bones and marrow, whence will flesh or hair be able to be restored in the resurrection? Therefore, let those who ask such things look at the small seeds of immense trees, and if they can, let them say: Where in them lies hidden such a mass of strength, such diversity of branches, such multitude and greenness of leaves, such beauty of flowers, such abundance, flavor, and fragrance of fruits? Do the seeds of trees have the fragrance or flavor which the trees themselves afterward bring forth in their fruits? If therefore from the seed of trees what cannot be seen can be produced, why is there distrust concerning the dust of human flesh, that from it a form which is not seen can be restored?
But they are accustomed often to raise a vain little question, by which they say: A wolf ate the flesh of a man, a lion devoured the wolf, the lion dying returned to dust; when that dust is raised up, how is the flesh of the man separated from the flesh of the wolf and the lion? To these what else ought we to respond, except that they should first consider how they came into this world, and then they will discover how they rise again? Certainly you, O man, who say this, were once a foam of blood in your mother's womb; for there you were a small and liquid mass from your father's seed and your mother's blood. Tell me, I ask, if you know, how that moisture of seed hardened into bones, how it remained liquid in the marrow, how it was solidified into sinews, how it grew into flesh, how it was stretched out into skin, how it was distinguished into hair and nails, so that the hair would be softer than flesh, and the nails more tender than bones, harder than flesh? If therefore so many and such great things from one seed were distinguished into different forms, and yet remain joined in one shape, what wonder is it if Almighty God in that resurrection of the dead can distinguish the flesh of a man from the flesh of beasts, so that one and the same dust both does not rise again insofar as it is the dust of a wolf and lion, and yet does rise again insofar as it is the dust of a man? See therefore, O man, how you came to life, and do not at all doubt how you may return to life. But why do you wish to comprehend by reason how you return, you who do not know how you came? Grant to the power of your Creator what you cannot comprehend about yourself. For certainly because you were made from earth, and earth from nothing, you were created from nothing. Therefore, lest you despair about the resurrection of your flesh, consider prudently that it is less for God to restore what existed than to have made what did not exist.
But if you cannot comprehend the effect of the resurrection by reason, consider how many things there are that you do not understand how they exist, and yet you do not doubt that they exist. Tell me, I ask, if you know the circuits of heaven, the hinges of the earth, the abysses of the waters—where they end, where they are suspended? We know, however, that what was made from nothing hangs upon nothing. But if there is something that is called nothing, it is no longer nothing. If, however, nothing is nothing, the mass of the world hangs nowhere, and there is no place where that which was created to exist might be. How then is that which we know exists nowhere? But perhaps these things are too many for you; return, O man, to yourself. Certainly you were created from spirit and clay—one invisible, the other visible; one sensible, the other insensible. How then could spirit and clay be mingled in you, and from diverse things something not diverse be made, so that in such great harmony spirit and clay were mixed that when the flesh is worn down the spirit languishes, and when the spirit is afflicted the flesh wastes away? But perhaps you are not yet able to examine yourself. Consider, I ask, if you can, how the Red Sea was divided by a rod, how the hardness of rock poured forth waves when struck by a rod, how Aaron's dry rod blossomed, how a Virgin coming from his lineage conceived, how she remained a virgin even in giving birth; how a man dead four days, raised by a command, came forth from the tomb with hands and feet bound, whom the Lord afterward commanded to be loosed by the disciples; how our same Redeemer, rising in true flesh and bones, entered to the disciples through closed doors.
Behold, you are unable to investigate these things, and yet you believe. Why then do you doubt concerning the glory of the resurrection by disputing and examining, you who have believed so many mysteries without examination? Yet if you do not believe in the resurrection of the flesh, you have believed all things without cause, because in this spectacle of angels you appear indeed to run swiftly, but after you have completed your course, you turn away so as not to receive the prize. Hence it is said through Paul: So run that you may comprehend. Who again says: If in this life we are hoping in Christ only, we are more miserable than all men. But the mysteries of divine power which cannot be comprehended are not to be examined by understanding, but to be venerated by faith. Therefore we must know that whatever can be comprehended by human reason can no longer be wondrous, but in miracles the only reason is the power of the one who performs them. Behold, while we speak concerning the resurrection of the flesh, we have digressed a little from the order of exposition. Let us therefore return to those things which we have begun.
The interior gates have vestibules that are measured as twenty-five cubits in length. For if we multiply eight by three, we arrive at twenty-four. To this one is added, so that we have twenty-five. For good hearers, who are like certain vestibules of the gates, hold the longsuffering of eternal hope; they await the eighth day in faith in the Trinity. Because this Trinity is one God, they indeed multiply eight by three, but they are made firm in the confession of one God. The vestibules are level because the hearts of good hearers are humble. They have length because they persevere in the longsuffering of hope. Their length is measured at twenty-five cubits because they believe in the resurrection of the flesh on the eighth day through the Trinity, and they confess that the same holy Trinity is one God. They also have five cubits in width because through the simple life that is led by the five senses they are enlarged in love of neighbor. And it should be noted that after the vestibules of the gates were described above as one thing, afterward the vestibule that has five cubits in width is said to look outward, because indeed there are some hearers who penetrate the understanding of the interior life more by advancing in virtues, and there are certain simple ones who live well indeed but according to the bodily senses. Hence they are also said to look outward. For they look outward, as it were, because they live according to the bodily senses. But nevertheless even those looking outward are within, because even if they do not know how to transcend the bodily senses by understanding, they still humbly hold faith and charity. And so they are within in the spiritual building through love, and they look outward, as it were, through simplicity.
The vestibule that looks outward can designate the faith of beginners, and the vestibule that is interior can designate the faith of the perfect, who already shine forth through it in signs and virtues. The higher precepts can also be represented by the interior vestibule, while the still lesser precepts can be represented by the vestibule that looks outward. For through the vestibule one goes to the steps and to the gate, because through the precepts of preaching one attains to virtues and to the entrance of heavenly grace. But when some are commanded to meditate on eternal things in their thoughts, to be wise about heavenly things, and when they are told to live in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, the interior vestibule is shown, as it were, which is measured at fifty cubits in length and twenty-five in width. About these numbers we are now silent, because we have already said much about them above. But when others are commanded, "Let the husband render to his wife what is due, and likewise also the wife to her husband," the vestibule that looks outward is designated, as it were. Though it looks outward, nevertheless it is inside, because the unlearned hearer both still does what is of the flesh and yet is not excluded from the number of the good.
However, the Lord can also be designated by the gate of the East, Judea by the South, and the converted Gentile world by the North. We call the gate the Lord because through Him we enter to Him. We not inappropriately call the gates Judea and the Gentile world, because we have recognized that first to the Hebrews, and afterward to the fathers coming from the Gentile world, the entrance to the heavenly building was given. But in this matter a question strikes the mind: why in the earlier narration of the prophet was the Eastern gate described first, then that of the North, and afterward that of the South? And when he was narrating about the same gates in the inner court, he described first the gate of the South, then of the East, and in the third place that of the North. Why did he not maintain the same order he had begun, but changed it in the description of the gates, so that first he spoke of the gate of the East, of the North and of the South, and afterward of the South, of the East and of the North? But if the Gentile world is designated by the name of the North, it is clear to all who read carefully that the Gentile world existed before the Synagogue. For Heber himself, from whom the Hebrews are named, was chosen from among the Gentiles. Let the Eastern gate therefore be mentioned before the gate of the North and of the South, because in His divinity the Lord was born before the Gentile world and Judea, He who also exists before all ages. But in the subsequent narration let the gate of the South, of the East and of the North be mentioned, because our Redeemer deigned to be born in human nature between Judea and the Gentile world, because He came both at the end of the Synagogue and before the beginning of the Church, which He gathered from the Gentiles. In the first description, therefore, let the Eastern gate be before the gate of the North and of the South; but in the second, let the gate of the East be named between the gate of the South and of the North, because both from His divinity He preceded all things, and from His humanity He came among all things, He who became both the end of the departing Judea and the beginning of the succeeding Gentile world. Therefore, since we have searched out as we could, with the Lord's generosity, those things which had not yet been said, and we have passed over those things which have been repeated more often, let us now come to those things which are now said in order in such a way that in them almost nothing of what has been said is repeated: And for each treasury chamber there was a door in the fronts of the gates.
We said above that the treasuries are the hearts of teachers, which preserve the riches of knowledge. The fronts of the gates are the words and works of preachers, by which we recognize outwardly what kind of persons they are who live within themselves. There is a door through each treasury in the fronts of the gates, because each teacher opens understanding in the heart of the hearer through the sayings and works of the fathers. For when we examine the preaching of the apostle Peter, when we search out the words of Paul, when we investigate the Gospel of John, and from their words draw our hearers to interior understanding, what else do we do but open a door in the fronts of the gates? Let it therefore be said: Through each treasury a door in the fronts of the gates, because if a teacher does not confirm what he says by the sayings of the apostles, he does not have a door in the fronts of the gates. And if he does not have a door, it can no longer be called a treasury of the spiritual building, because if he does not open understanding, he is not a teacher. But when good hearers learn the sayings and works of the apostles through the mouths of those who teach, they silently reprove their own faults within themselves, and pursue with tears everything they remember having done unjustly. Hence here too it is added concerning the door that is in the fronts of the gates: There they washed the burnt offering.
For those who have devoted themselves to the Lord through faith in holy conduct have become a holocaust to the Lord. But because they still suffer many things in themselves from their corruptible flesh, because purity of heart is still defiled in them by sordid thoughts, they return daily to tears, they are afflicted by constant weeping. For they consider the words and deeds of the holy fathers, and when they judge themselves unworthy, they wash the holocaust at the entrance of the gates. Behold, for example, someone has vowed out of fear of the almighty Lord to be patient, to render no insult for insult, to tolerate all things with equanimity, and yet when an insult hurled from a neighbor's mouth suddenly strikes him, disturbed he perhaps says something he should not have said. Certainly this man is already a holocaust, but still unclean. Perhaps he showed patience against the insults hurled at him, he remained silent; but nevertheless he is touched by grief at those same insults which he bears, and his soul is wounded in its charity. For true patience is that which loves even the one whom it bears. For to tolerate but to hate is not the virtue of gentleness, but a covering for rage. And so this man often judges himself in his thought, reproaches himself because he grieves, yet cannot prevail upon himself not to grieve. Therefore through good devotion he is already a holocaust, but still unclean through the grief by which he is touched. Another has resolved within himself to give all that he possesses to the needy, to reserve nothing for himself, to commit his life to heavenly governance alone; but while he gives to the poor what he has, perhaps a thought creeps into his mind which says: How will you live if you give everything away? Yet he does not cease to give, but what he had begun to give joyfully he afterward gives sadly. What is this man's mind but a holocaust of mercy? Yet still unclean through the sadness of thought. For either he should not have resolved upon the highest things, or after resolving he should in no way have doubted. Another, having despised worldly pride, has resolved to avoid the honors and dignities of this age, he seeks to hold the lowest place among men, so that he may be found more exalted in lasting glory the more humble he appears in passing life. When this man suddenly recognizes that he is despised by his neighbor, perhaps he is indignant at being despised. He wishes indeed to be in a humble place, but yet he does not wish to be seen as contemptible. Devotion now lifts him up, but weakness still weighs him down. Therefore through devotion he is already a holocaust, but still unclean from weakness. And so those who in the things they have excellently vowed are touched by some fault of their weakness, when through the words of teachers they understand the sayings of the fathers, and recognize how great a fault they lie in, and afflict themselves with the laments of penance, they wash the holocaust at the entrance of the gates.
It must be known that this is the difference between a sacrifice and a holocaust: every holocaust is a sacrifice, but not every sacrifice is a holocaust. For in a sacrifice a part of the animal was customarily offered, but in a holocaust the whole animal. Hence holocaust is called in the Latin language "totally burned." Let us consider, therefore, what a sacrifice is and what a holocaust is. For when someone vows something of his own to God, and does not vow something else, it is a sacrifice. But when he has vowed to almighty God everything that he has, everything that he lives, everything that he understands, it is a holocaust. For there are some who are still held in mind to this world, and yet from their possessions they minister aid to the needy and hasten to defend the oppressed. These, in the good things they do, offer a sacrifice, because they both immolate something of their activity to God and reserve something for themselves. And there are some who reserve nothing for themselves, but immolate to the almighty Lord their sense, tongue, life, and substance which they have received. What do these offer except a holocaust; indeed, do they not rather become a holocaust? For the Israelite people first offered sacrifice in Egypt, but the second in the wilderness. Therefore, whoever still has his mind in the world, but already does some good, has offered sacrifice to God in Egypt. But whoever abandons the present world and does what good he can, as if having already left Egypt behind, offers sacrifice in the wilderness, because, having repelled the noise of carnal desires, he immolates to God in the quiet and solitude of his mind whatever he does. Therefore, although, as has been said, a holocaust is also a sacrifice, nevertheless a holocaust is greater than a sacrifice, because the mind that is not weighed down by the delight of this world burns totally in sacrifice to almighty God whatever it has.
But we must know that there are some who, even while leaving the world, offer indeed all that they have, yet are in no way moved to compunction in the good deeds they do; and while the good they do is indeed a holocaust, yet because they do not know how to weep and judge themselves, and do not kindle themselves from love to tears, their holocaust is not perfect. Hence it is said through the Psalmist: "May the Lord remember all your sacrifice, and may your holocaust be made fat." For a holocaust is dry when the good work is not suffused with the tears of prayer. But a holocaust is fat when what is done well is also watered with tears from a humble heart. Hence again it is said: "I will offer you fat holocausts with marrow." For whoever does a good work but does not know how to weep from love and desire of almighty God has a holocaust, but does not have marrow in his holocaust. But whoever does good works and now longs for the vision of his Creator, and hastens to arrive at the joys of eternal contemplation, and slays himself in weeping from the love by which he is kindled, has given the Lord holocausts with marrow. Therefore we must strive both to abandon evils completely and to do the good works we are able to do, and in those very good deeds we do to be moved to compunction by love of the eternal light. For love of the light itself dispels the darkness of the heart, so that we may be able to see more subtly lest anything perverse be mixed with the good deeds we do. For we must consider what our work is like, what thought is in the work, what intention is in the thought. And when we recognize that something of malice or perverse delight is mixed with our good work, let us return to tears, let us wash the holocaust.
There are, however, certain people who have devoted themselves to the Lord in great undertakings and have attained such perfection that they are never bent by any difficulty, so that in their resolve for chastity the flesh never prostrates the mind with delight in wicked thought. For even if it sometimes knocks through suggestion, it is not permitted to rise, because it is trampled down by the vigor of judgment. Likewise in their resolve for patience, no disorderly word proceeds from their mouth, nor does silent grief press upon the mind; in their generosity of almsgiving, no suspicion of want generates sadness; in their resolve for humility, no contempt gnaws at the mind. But although they now show themselves strong in those things which they have rightly vowed, nevertheless they bring back to memory the former sins that were committed by them before their good resolve, and they lament whatever they remember having done unlawfully. These therefore are a holocaust through the life they hold, but defiled through the life they held before. Therefore they wash the holocaust at the entrance of the gates, because in the understanding they have received from the sayings of the fathers, they afflict themselves with daily lamentations, and cleanse with tears the life they once defiled with wicked deeds. Let us therefore among these things bring back the eyes of our mind to our past life, let us remember what we were when we were following the desires of this world. And if we now serve the Lord with our whole heart, because we remember that we have sinned, let us weep, let us wash the holocaust in weeping.
Behold, we have vowed our chastity to almighty God; but if impure thought still defiles the mind, let us return to tears, let us wash the burnt offering. Behold, we have resolved to preserve patience. But if anger still disturbs us, if silent grief torments the mind, let us return to tears, let us wash the burnt offering. Behold, we have now learned to give away our possessions and to hold a humble place in this world; if any suspicion of poverty still weighs down the soul, if contempt from our neighbor confounds us with some indignation, let us return to tears, let us wash the burnt offering. For great is the bosom of mercy of our Creator for receiving the tears of the humble. For where the tears of innumerable people have been received, there our tears too will find their place. Let us consider what is said through another prophet: And whoever among them stumbles on that day shall be like David, and the house of David shall be like God, like the angel of the Lord in his sight. This is the day of mercy which was promised to us from the coming of our Redeemer. Therefore whoever stumbles shall be like David, because the sinner returns to repentance; but the house of David shall be like God, because everyone who returns to righteousness becomes a dwelling place of his Creator, so that he may be like an angel in his sight, because he offers to others by proclaiming the bowels of mercy which he himself has experienced. Hence also a little later it is said there: On that day there shall be a fountain opened for the house of David and for those dwelling in Jerusalem, for the washing of the sinner and of her who is menstruating.
For the hidden fountain is the only-begotten of the Father, the invisible God. But the open fountain is the same God incarnate. This open fountain is rightly called the house of David, because our Redeemer came forth to us from the lineage of David. Jerusalem is interpreted as the vision of peace. Those who dwell in Jerusalem are they who fix their minds on the vision of inner peace. The sinner and the menstruous woman is either one who transgresses in deed, or the mind that slips into wicked thought. For this pollution is that of the menstruous woman, because she is not touched by another's flesh, yet is defiled by her own flesh. So it is, so it is with every soul that, even if it does not commit an evil deed, nevertheless becomes filthy through polluted thought. Hence also through another prophet, under the figure of Judea, it is said of the soul occupied with unclean desires: All who seek her will not fail; they will find her in her menstrual periods. For malign spirits seeking do not fail when they desire to bring destruction, and are repelled by no rectitude of good thought. And they find the soul in her menstrual periods when, finding her placed in polluted thoughts, they easily drag her to perverse action. Let it therefore be said: In that day there shall be an open fountain for the house of David and for the inhabitants of Jerusalem, for the washing of the sinner and the menstruous woman, because the fountain of mercy, our Redeemer, is now opened to us, who deigned to become incarnate in the house of David, so that he might wash the sinner from perverse deed, and cleanse the menstruous mind from unclean thought. The fountain therefore lies open; let us run with tears, let us be washed in this fountain of loving-kindness.
In this fountain David himself also was washed when he returned to the lamentations of repentance after the stains of grievous sin. For he was seeking to find this very fountain when he said: "Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and strengthen me with your principal spirit." For "Jesus" in Hebrew is called "Savior" in Latin. And what was it that he was asking—that the joy of Jesus be restored to him—except that before his sin he had been accustomed to contemplate him, and in his sin had lost the joys of that contemplation? Hence rightly after his repentance he was seeking that the joy of that vision be restored to him. In this fountain of mercy Mary Magdalene was washed, who was first a notorious sinner, but afterwards washed away her stains with tears and wiped away her stains by correcting her ways. In this fountain of mercy Peter washed before all what he had denied, because he wept bitterly. In this fountain of mercy the thief was washed at his end, who, reproaching himself in death, was cleansed from his sin by confession of the truth.
Why then are we sluggish? Why do we remain torpid and cold, we who have known that so many have already washed themselves in this fountain of mercy? Shall we then despair of our own cleansing, we who hold so many examples of mercy as a pledge? And do we cease to seek pardon and to have confidence with tears, we who have received the cleansing of so many as a pledge of our hope? For we ought to seek the fountain of mercy even if it were closed. Now it lies open, and we neglect it. Let us cast the eyes of faith upon the whole world, let us consider how many sinners day and night are washed through lamentations in this fountain of mercy, how many return from darkness to light, how many from stains to purity. Let us therefore run with such people after the darkness of death to the water of life; let us consider how much we have sinned, how much we sin daily, and, that we may appear clean after our faults, let us wash the burnt offering. For accomplishing these things the grace of our Redeemer is present, who lives and reigns forever and ever. Amen.